Baptism

Brenan was baptized tonight by the same friends who married Brenan and Jess. We sat in the living room as they read scripture and prayed, and Brenan re-dedicated himself to God. He had a busy day today - sitting outside on the patio, taking a 'roll' around the block, getting situated at home, and of course the baptism. We even played a game of Apples to Apples which Brenan suggested we play and then he won. *cough* cheater

He sleeps on and off throughout the day - just as his doctor had said, he is pretty tired. The nurse came around noon to take blood and check on things and will report back tomorrow with blood results and anything else he might be needing.

I can honestly say that this is the most difficult thing I have ever been through. I am saddened by seeing my brother sick and weak, all the while grasping for any shred of hope that he will get better. I see my mom, dad, and Jess sitting with Brenan, so strong, so supportive, their hearts aching, and know that they too have their moments of breakdown just like me. It's a battle that plays out in our heads - if we're too sad then maybe that means we've conceded to the cancer, but if we're naively optimistic we're not facing the reality and seriousness of the situation that faces us. One day at a time.